Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Phwew!!!

Nerves. Nerves are getting to me. I know that I am not depressed. I’ve done that route before, so this definitely is not depression. I’m wondering if I am suffering from SAD (seasonal defective disorder) or claustrophobia. Those are my two big things at this time. Feels like I’m going crazy. I kinda just spazzed out at work. I had to practically run to the window for some room. I’m getting spooked easily. A rapid heartbeat. I tried to start walking the other day. I think I will go again after work. I need to. Last night I found myself muttering "I need to get out of here." I’m not sure what I was talking about. I also discover that I argue that I do not snore, while I’m sleeping. With my eyes open!!! This is quite alarming. The whole "ghost in the machine" deal. Is it really me? Is something else trying to work its way out? Is that the real me? I’m a mess. Honestly. Woah...I just told my co-workers how i have been feeling. I openly shared my emotions!!! I have not done that since before Christmas break!

2 Comments:

Blogger Thérèse said...

Sounds like you need to sit down. Preferably in a scented bubble bath next to a glass of champagne, excellent chocolate and a really good TRN.

Maybe just an off day?

1/19/2005 01:00:00 PM  
Blogger Minoa said...

thanks for the suggestion!!!
unfortunately, my bath tub has a weird thing in the drain so that a plug doesn't fit. all we can do is take showers! a friend just gave us a thing of chocolate scented bath stuff. my husband is a mind-reader though, he called about 10 minutes ago and asked out of the blue if i would like to go work out at the gym after work. i replied with and emphatic YES!!!
i think i will be making outside excursions. all i do is sit in a little cubicle all day. no real air. no window. so...i need sometings!!! thanks again for the support!

1/19/2005 01:09:00 PM  

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