Have a Little Faith in Me

I must be unfaithful, or maybe I never follow thru enough for people. Maybe they don’t think that I have a high enough IQ, maybe I’m not trustworthy. I think this is the reason why I have stopped talking w/ people lately. A very trustworthy friend of mine claims that she has the same problem. She thinks that it has to be our "cuteness factor." "We are too cute so we must be deceptive." Over the last couple of years, since I met my husband, I have had a few different guys try to convince me that I am cute/datable. You’d think that getting married wouldn’t prove that? Anyway, I digress. Cuteness!!! Is this what most beautiful women go thru? Does anyone believe an attractive model/actress? Or is it the opposite for them, in that they are so beautiful that it doesn’t matter what they say to anyone, as long as they are giving their attention to someone? I doubt that anyone could give me an answer on this. I just need people to build their faith in me. I don’t know how to do that because I don’t know what I’m doing wrong to begin with. According to my husband, I am not unbelievable. Apparently I’m making this up, imagining it, or over-worrying. But what else do I call it when practically everyone I know doesn’t believe what I tell them, or trusts me to do stuff, and it feels like I have to work extra hard to convince them? Or when people start to talk over me, interrupt me, and/or tell me to shoosh! This last month I have started to say, "wait, I wasn’t finished talking!" I have gotten a few apologies for it. My opinion of an all-women environment: it’s like tying a bunch of cats tails together and leaving them in an enclosed room. That is why there is always so much kleenex and chocolate around.